Friday, October 30, 2015


The end of October, beginning of November is a rough week for me and my family. Were all a lot quieter. A lot nicer. More distant.

 On October 31,2009, my Nana died.

This was the first death in the family that I was really involved in. I helped plan the funeral, I made phone calls. If you've ever had to do any of these things, you know how awful it is. It's soul sucking, heart crushing, panic attack awful.

November 1 is Papa's (her husbands) birthday. Everyone in my family dies on special days. It's just how they roll. From Christmas to siblings birthdays. They like to go out with a bang.

It wasn't surprising she wanted to celebrate Papa's birthday with him.

My favorite picture of them.

I always go overboard with Halloween. I have too. I buy too many pumpkins and bake too many sweets. I try and make the month as happy and festive as possible. Try and numb how awful I feel. Nana always made holidays so fun. Lots of home made crafts and goodies.

When Papa died, back in 2001. I knew it would hurt like hell. It still does. I was not prepared, for the pain of Nana's death. The loss that I have felt is mind boggling. There's not a day that goes by that I don't wish I could talk to her. Ask her questions or tell her about something amazing that happened.

I want to shout from the rooftops about her. I want the whole world to know who she was. I want the whole world to be loved, the way she loved me.

Nana was a force. Whatever she touched was made better and stronger. The best way to honor her, is to try and do the same.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Constant Vigilance.

When you think of October, you normally think of Halloween or breast cancer. October is also Domestic Violence Awareness month.

That, is a horrifying statistic. 

I have been very fortunate, to never experience any sort of violence. There are a lot of woman, that are not so lucky. Last year, 132 woman were killed in Texas alone due to domestic violence. 

If you or someone you know is suffering, there is help! 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)

One of the best things about blogging is getting to participate in opportunities, I would never have access too. On Tuesday, I had the chance to go to Chamberlain Studios of Self Defense.

Nick and his team taught a lucky group of us some skills to help defend ourselves, if we ever find ourselves in a bad situation.

The biggest thing, that stuck with me, was to be alert!

 Be aware of your surroundings! Get off your phone! Park closest to the door! Have an employee walk you to your car! Have your keys ready! Buddy system!

Nick and his team do some amazing work in the community. If you're in the area, you HAVE to check them out!

I can think of a lost boy who would have the best time at the Brew Ha-Ha!

All donations from this event will Benefit the Genesis Woman's Shelter. 

In addition to these 2 awesome events, Chamberlain offers on going monthly events. Click here to check them all out! 

I had the best day with the most amazing women.  I left Nick's studio feeling so strong and empowered!   I can't wait to go back!

Photos courtesy of Autumn from Mama Challenge.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Mom fail.

Happy Thursday! I hope everyone is having an amazing week! Sorry for the short break, Jack had a minor surgery last week and I took some much needed time off to baby him. He's doing well and enjoyed the break from school. 

I'm not sure when this happened, but his face has changed so much. He looks like such a boy. :(

I've had a rough week. Monday the lost boys were off. I'm thinking it was for Columbus Day. Oh no. It was for parent teacher conferences. Guess who forgot? 

I totally dropped the ball. I didn't even fill out the sign up form. 

And Jack has been late to school every day this week. 

 Ryan got sent to the office yesterday for misbehaving. He didn't do anything super bad, but it just makes me feel like a failure. I love his wild personality, but sometimes, it would be great if he could rein it in. I'm very thankful, he has 2 amazing teachers, that understand him and are soooooo patient. 

This boy would live in the tub, if I let him.

I'm off today and going to do some much needed housework and work on an awesome post for later this week. Here's a preview.


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